down to earth

Fs- but I need you , and I wish I could have seen your work! And how you thought things through back then, cause honestly I’m lost now.. and you could have really inspired me or helped me

Ys- but you remember things …? You remember those moments when I was struggling with “to write or not to write” thoughts and all my fears associated w documenting my thoughts .. don’t you? At least some of them right? And then in remembering those moments, don’t those trigger more memories of the actual memories of said documentations?

Fs-My memory is not that vast! what did you expect?

Ys- I mean ya I had the fear of course that you might not remember certain things or that some memories would go into the irrelevant pile only by virtue of elimination cause of time .. but I half hoped that in trying to recall certain things it would have trained you to recall things better and more abundantly

Fs- ya ok I get it I mean ya I am you and know your overthinking habits but I’m older now and with serious need of extra gigabyte software to back up my brain of memories if you know what I mean. so sometimes I’m just like crying out for dear help crying out for you!

Ys- ya that’s what I was worried about- but we’ve gone through this so many times it’s like a cycle that keeps repeating itself but also more like a muscle that keeps building itself . I always woudl go through phases of what things in my head are worth keeping or not but at the end I would somehow find a way to keep everything ! And what a relief becasue you never know when things come in handy ya know.

Fs- why do you sound wiser than me, I’m you in the future and I’m the one that’s lost haha.

Ys- well we’re both the same amount wise or dumb I guess you are just suffering from overload so your anxiety is blocking your actual productivity. I’m younger so I haven’t had enough time to fill my brain with as much as you have now so in a sense I have more breathing space if you know what I mean.

Fs- ya ok that makes sense and I feel better . We’re the same person !

Ys- oh ya I’m pretty social right now and generally kinda alive and feeling pretty well stimulated intellectually and emotionally. How bout you? Is it the same still or different. Sounds like there are changes that happened either around you or within you that is causing some stress?

Fs- ya I am totally not as social anymore but I’m relieved to be honest . Aren’t you stressed from being so social yet? I guess you have a point if you dare to venture that there may be some correlation between being less social and being stressed. It is relieving to some extent but it also is stressful to depart form your social settings even mildly, worrying that you’ve hurt peoples feelings to some extent and I guess not being actively socially stimulated in a good way.

Ys- ya I guess that conundrum is like a palindrome, on either end it sounds out the same . For me too ya I’m admittedly stressed sometimes with too much social life but I guess you know about that, I need the down time to recharge ya know, and there’s pressure to commit to people . It feels too constant sometimes, but I wouldn’t give them up for the world.

Fs- hey you’e right about the palindrome thingy! Did you come up with that just now

Ys- ya I did actually!

Fs – dang I need to start eating what you’re eating !

Ys- haha don’t get me started. I’m eating literally anything and everything I’m always hungry and am loving beef sashimi these days

Fs- oh I don’t eat meat yo, haha but don’t get me started, and I meant proverbially… I guess you’re just well mentally stimulated . And also you’re hungry cause you’re thinking so much and super active, so your mind is asking back all those calories that it burned. But don’t quote me on that,, I know you’ve been thinking it too and I’ve meant to look it up and see if there’s any correlation but I am a procrastinator and … well I guess You didn’t document this well enough for me to be pursuing it 😉 . But I got you and I don’t blame you. You’re right the fact that I’m remembering this now prob means that stuff comes back to us when prompted and really needed. But I guess also I wouldn’t have thought about it if I hadn’t been talking to you.. so thanks, mentally stimulating friend! But ya remind me maybe we could call our future future self one day and find out if she ever documented this and got an answer . Dude I gotta go sleep now though and it’s been so good talking to you, can we do this again?

Ys- no meat!!!!? How!???? do you live??? I’m so sad!! ok so many questions, but ya it’s time for me too, so goodnight and ya definitely let’s catch up later k!!!

Fs- oh cool there’s no time difference for you. Ok ya peace and goodnight!!

Ys- you say peace now?

Fs- not really, I knew someone briefly who said it.. who am I ? Seriously…. This is why I need you man!!!

Ys- haha ok no judgment don’t worry! I’m here for you!!!!!!

Fs- Ok love you!

Ys- love you too!!